That's What You Get When You Let Your Heart Win

I put my faith in you
So much faith
And then you just threw it away.

Today I put all of my hope and all of my faith in a situation. In a moment. In the day. In myself, really. Every single ounce, and I knew I would. And I knew that it wouldn't end well. But I did it anyway.

I mean, it's not like anything happened. Of course nothing happened. But my attitude was one that was head over heels focused on this moment, not on anything important or influential.

And so I did about fifty driving home. Paramore was blaring so loud that my ears were ringing. I lost my voice in Haley Williams' vocals and tried not to think.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

And I realized I had let my heart win, let my flesh win, even though I'd prayed so fervently five hours earlier "Let it be Your will, not my will."



And so I struggle when I get exactly what I asked for.